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Gregarious Troglodyte

Gregarious Troglodyte prison picture black and white with guards and warden

Gregarious Troglodyte

(Written in Prison)

In a place where the sun hardly shines.

Where many laugh when the pain is hard to hide.

Reality seems paused, standing still, until you realize things keep going without you.

Your mind wanders plus distorts memories.

You start wondering how different life could have been, if only you knew then what you know now.

You don’t like meeting new people, or at least sometimes you feel like you don’t.

You tell yourself you need to change and maybe that’s why rebelling was so appealing.

Then you wonder if there is more to life.

There must be.  The perplexity of everything, the simplicity of nothing.

The concept of concept.

What is a thought?

How much does it weigh?

15385269923_e4cf56a8c1_mWhere were you before you were?

Cogito ergo sum. (I think, therefore I am).

So much you know.

So much you wish you didn’t…

What does it mean to you to be alone forever?

Separated and isolated.

In the dark.

With nothing but the memories you’ve collected,

Would that be punishment enough for the things that we’ve committed?

For the things we’ve thought?

Who considers himself not an evil person?

Self delusions are virulent and deadly, and can lead to our demise.

Don’t be deceived.

Trust not yourself, for you cannot be the perfect standard.

Neither can corrupt humanity.

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What Can One Do To Change

picture taking on rocks, with water visible and a city beyond the water, a place I would ponder changing

What Can You Do To Change?

What can one do to change when what one does is all he’s ever done?

And if all he ever did is all he ever does, will it be all he’ll ever do?

The logic doesn’t follow.

If we continually do something, what can one do to change it?

Though we have certain habits,

these things have not always been a part of one’s life.

At a point in life,  one introduces regular customs into one’s reality,

and from there may arise the possibility of a habit.

I suggest that we all have some external things which we habitually return to.

Whatever these different things are,

vary from person to person but the result is the same.

A habit can become an addiction when it negatively begins to impact your life,

and when you no longer have control over the habit.

But Always Remember…

Remember though, the ability for us to change any pattern is in our power.

The reason we do not change at times lies first in our motivation to change and second in our constant reverting to old ways of doing things.

As you repeat anything throughout your life, that repeated thing becomes embedded into your brain.

The more you repeat a thing the deeper it becomes interwoven into your very being.

In order for any change to happen, one will need to,

not only decide to change,

but be constantly aware of one’s tendency to revert to old ways when first attempting to change.

Creating new patterns is important when first attempting to change any behavior.

Finding and believing your new paradigm, or model is the first step.

Once you have a model of the world that you wish to adhere to,

let others know of your shift in beliefs and have them hold you accountable to your goals.

One must be humbled completely and allow others to question them and their doings without being offended ever.

If one is serious about change,

one should not be bothered by others questioning what we do until all can easily and honestly see that change has happened.

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Convincing Ourselves

Humanities Struggle

We strive to do what seems right unto our own eyes,

convincing ourselves all the days of our life.

We persuade ourselves others are wronging us and find reasons to shift our guilt or blame others.

Sometimes we even believe our own lies to free ourselves from our conscience.

Humans do this throughout their lives while finding comfort in their justifications.

Some find no rest later on when they begin to question their previous justifications.

This results in a striving for confirmation from others regarding the validity –or the invalidity– of past judgments,

though ultimately we are the ones who make our choices.

Until we cease to exist we will be incapable of ridding ourselves completely from our mistakes, incapacities, and ignorance.

Our lack of complete understanding should leave us with a yearning of gaining knowledge constantly.

The eyes of our mind should be,

at first,

focused on gaining knowledge and then

applying it as well.

Yet, there are many who are able to gain knowledge but are not possessed by the will to apply knowledge.

We all gain knowledge and apply it to an extent,

though it is all based on our way of looking at reality,

and the importance we place on such things.

If one is brought up to place little importance on such matters,

or to believe there is no objective way to view reality,

then it is safe to conclude,

with sound reasoning,

that the extent to which we can gain and apply knowledge is limited,

first to our upbringing,

and second,

to the constant individual choices,

we make throughout our life.

Knowing this,

we can strive to rationally make decisions based on the here and now,

and not hold onto beliefs simply because we were raised with them,

but because they align with reality.

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What Are We Without Direction?

Man With many arrows pointing in many directions

A Man Once Asked…

“What are we without direction?”

If we only move toward the pattern we are used to

and only strive along its path because of our familiarity with it,

will it not bring us into a circle from which there is no escape?

For is it not when one easily embraces new paradigms

and ably decides to willingly follow the Truth,

no matter where it leads,

that one is able to truly have direction?

But preconceptions have directed your paths

since the first perceptions you had.

Now you are a result of the events that have transpired mixed along with your view of them all

and how you decide to respond to them.

All have a world-view.

All have a religion.

Whatever your model is for the way that you view the world around you is your belief system.

We all, systematically, and ritualistically perform a myriad of actions all the days of our life

which were programmed or whose roots are intertwined with our very innate nature.






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Human Observation

What Is Observed

One experiences human observation individually.

One observes constantly through the available senses and decides what makes sense to them.

Along the path of the journey, one begins to realize what they believe their purpose is.

Even those who believe there is no purpose, have made it their purpose to believe such things.

There are those things which make more sense than others.

There is a way of looking at reality that is cohesive when looked at rationally and logically.

Of course these conflict depending on who we ask.

This makes sense since people are imperfect…

What Else Is Observed…

This brings me to another point of my own personal human observation.

We seem to universally understand we are not perfect.

We seem to see that we are not always good.

Of course, there are those who believe they might be perfect.

This is usually proved otherwise by those who know that person personally.

And You Know What Else…

All this talk about imperfection leads me to another observation!

How do we know what perfection looks like?

Some would say we are taught it by those who raised us.

I would say to an extent,

but there is something within us all which makes choices individually based on everything we are raised to believe.

If ideas of what is perfect, good, and right are not real but simply taught then one could never truly say a thing is right or wrong, or perfect or imperfect.

Yet that is not the case is it…

We all feel wronged when someone offends us.

If someone murders someone you love, you feel wronged.

If someone takes something of yours, you feel wronged.

Certain truths are universal,

though some may say otherwise until they are faced with it.

How Do We Know What Is Truth?

Since we have already proclaimed a humans lack of knowledge concerning perfection and his inability to achieve it,

how can one ever know the Infinite?

We must seek deeper for the answer and realize that perfect truth is one with the creator of it.

All the universal laws that govern the universe,

all the perfect truths that exist,

point us to the Eternal.